Oh, hello. It’s me. Kitty. Remember me? No. Well that’s my fault for not posting more often.
I would like to say sorry for the lack of blogging, life has gotten complicated. I’m not one for portraying life as all doom and gloom, with a delicious, caramel crap encrusted on top. I, for one, prefer to keep a rose-tinted view on life. Recently it seems that someone has found the secret location that contains my rose-tinted glasses and proceeded to scrub off the tint with a brillo pad of menacing realism. I’ve tried reapplying a layer of rose back on, but the crafty sod has foiled me by placing a layer of anti-vandalism paint. Thus making the rose-tint slid defeatedly back into the tin crying ‘I’m melting, I’m melting, oh what a cruel world’.
In this now cold and quite frankly, or franly for you feminists, irritable world I find one of my few sources of happiness is my online addiction. World of Warcraft (known here on as WoW). This is another reason for the lack of blogging. WoW provides me with instant happiness through recognition of my hard work I put into it. It doesn’t try to sweet talk me into thinking I might get more work hours, doesn’t try to kick me out of a house and doesn’t think I’m too over/under qualified to do a job. In fact the only downside to WoW is it steals my life and takes a bit of money away from me once every four months.
I feel like everyone else is getting the success or recognition they deserve. Getting that break in life. Everyone but me. I understand that these people how worked very hard to get what they have, but so have I. I always try to give as much as possible when I do stuff. Anyone I’ve worked with can testify to that. I feel that I’m not good enough anymore, that nothing I offer or do is going to be up to the standard set. It’s painful and it hurts my soul.
Could things get worse? Possible, but doesn’t it have to get worse before things get better. Currently I’m working towards a certain achievement in WoW that requires a lot of time and effort. To begin with everything was exciting as I knew what I wanted to achieve and had a plan. Next it started to drag and got to a point where I couldn’t find any of the rare items I needed to obtain my achievement. It seemed pointless and a waste of time when I could have been working towards the end game content. My boyfriend then pointed out to me that sooner or later it’s going to happen as the law of probability deems it so. Strangely enough he was right. I’m now only one item short of getting the achievement I set at to do and it’s exciting again as the goal is in sight. The same thing applies here. It’s going to happen sooner or later. It has to. Probability will make it happen. I just need to remind myself what it is I want, keep myself excited about getting it and continue trying to achieve it each day.
I may never be able to go back to a childlike innocence of the world, but as long as I remember what I’m aiming for I’m pretty sure it will come my way. God (or Gods depending on your Deity view) knows it’s almost my time. See I told you I don’t just do all doom and gloom.
I’ll leave you with this interesting tid-bit. Most toilets flush to the tone of E flat. Just delightful, isn’t it.